Life Update + Short Sleeve Boxy Cropped T-Shirt

I left to North Carolina for work on Monday, July 16th.

I flew home on Thursday, July 19th to spend two days with Jax for his 5th birthday. Leaving back to North Carolina again on Sunday, the 22nd.

I had only planned on being out in North Carolina until the 31st, but here I am today, still in North Carolina on August 4th. Home sick. Missing Jax. Living out of a suitcase that only had 10 days worth of outfits in it.

…. I’m losing my job.

I have worked in my position for the last 9 years of my life. It has been nothing but rewarding for me and I have learned so much. Unfortunately, with big companies, sales and acquisitions may happen… Which is why I am where I am today.

I came to North Carolina to train an amazing new team of employees here at the new beautiful office in Raleigh. The people here are wonderful, within the company and on the outside. Southern Hospitality is a real thing. I was presented with an option to relocate here, but that was a hard pill for me to swallow. Have you ever relocated to a new state? Not only a new state, but clear across the country? Moving so far away from Utah friends and family is something I can’t really grasp.

The last two months of my life, after finding out about the relocation, have been a whirlwind. It has been full of emotions- sadness, excitement, anger, depression, smiles and tears.

I had to say goodbye to some of my closest friends and employees that I had the opportunity of getting to know. That was one of the saddest days of my life. I met some of the most amazing people in my career. I grew so much as a person. I was truly proud of what I had accomplished in life and where I was at in the moments leading up to the news I didn’t want to receive. Not many can say that of themselves.

I can honestly say I am ready to close this chapter of my life and start on the next.

But through it all, I am still a shopaholic.

So because I am living out of a suitcase, with 10 days worth of clothes, I thought I would stop in at Target and see if they had any cute items out here that I needed to buy.

AND THEY DID!

I fell in love with a new label they have called “Wild Fable“, and I must say, I AM IN LOVE! Tons of great items in this label!

Super comfy and such good quality. I will have to share more of what I bought on another post, but for now I wanted to share the Short Sleeve Boxy Cropped T-Shirt. It’s only $8!!! The quality of this shirt is amazing. It is so soft!! I love the material. It fits well and can be worn with lots of things. The sleeves and bottom are cropped/cut, so there is not an actual hem on it.

So until next time, enjoy a photo of me wearing my White Boxy Cropped T-shirt in my home away from home!

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Day At The Pumpkin Patch

Day At The Pumpkin Patch

This time of year is seriously my favorite.
Who doesn’t love Fall!

Jax loves going to the pumpkin patch.

Wagon rides, animals, slides, food, lots of pumpkins, and playing in the dirt!
What little boy wouldn’t enjoy that?!

The pumpkin patch is a huge field full of discovery!
Our favorite tradition is going to find the perfect pumpkins.

We were a little late going this year.
Normally we go the first day it opens, but I have been so busy!

I look forward to little moments like these every year and I always make sure to capture the memories!

 

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Just a Little

“Let Me Love You A Little Before You’re Not Little Anymore”

This quote has never felt more real to me than as of late.

Today is July. friday, day 1.

My sweet little human is less than 30 days away from being 3.

I will be honest. When my friends and family told me “he will grow up so fast” I didn’t believe them. Not one bit. Well, folks. After having jaxson in my life for 3 years, I can now say YES. They were absolutely right and time isn’t stopping.

You might ask me, “Why 3? What makes his 3rd birthday such a big deal?”

Every birthday has been a big deal to me. They are all major milestones. But in my mind, I hit 3, then comes four, and then here comes 5. Then he is in school. Then he has best friends (that aren’t his mom), and then he is a teenager having girlfriends, and then he is 18 and trying to move out of the house and go live his life.

Ha! Ok, so i may have skipped a few years, but that is literally how it is playing out in my mind. And this mom is freaking out!

So before he is not so little anymore..

Jaxson,

My Sweet little human.

Your mom thinks to herself everyday how she got so lucky to receive you.

I can get lost in your big blue eyes every day. they light up when you see mom and dad and you get the most perfect smile across your face.

I love to hear your laugh. It’s so contagious!  You are such a silly boy. You love to sing and when you see mom watching, you get a little embarrassed, and start singing in a silly voice to make me laugh.

You are just like your mom. You are such a little water babe. If i let you, you would sit in the bath tub for hours. You always have to brings bath toys in there with you. Sharks are your favorite in the bath tub. You have to take about 30 different ones with you.

You have a huge fascination with dinosaurs. You can name more dinosaurs than i ever knew existed. You are so smart!

Right now, you love to say “no” and “dumbhole” (not sure where that one came from) and it drives your mom crazy! Tou think it’s funny until i put you in time out, and then you aren’t a fan of it anymore. Your big blue eyes fill up with crocodile tears. Time out is based on your age, so you have to sit in time out for 2 minutes. It is always the end of the world for you, and when mom says you wipe away those crocodile tears and get a huge smile on your face.

You are wreckless. I swear, you have more bumps and bruises than any other child I know! Your most recent crash resulted in multiple scabs all over your face! I about had a heart attack when I saw you. You are terrible at running and I always get nervous when I catch you full speed on the side walk!

You have somehow mastered the art of getting mom to let you eat ice cream before dinner. Not sure how that works, but I’d say it is a win-win for both of us because I get to eat some too.

I love your tiny feet and toes. You love to play “this little piggy” with mom and you always present a high pitched “ewwwww” when i pretend to smell them and say how stinky they are.

You love cereal. I think you would eat cereal every meal of every day if we allowed you to. Your current favorite is Lucky Charms. You like to pick out the marshmallows and make your mom eat the brown ones, which neither of us are really a fan, but I can’t say no otherwise you would never eat them!

I love to kiss your cheeks. so chubby and smooth. You love to snuggle up next to me and wrap your little arms around my neck. You get the sweetest little smirk on your face. Total lady killer.

I love you, Jaxson. and I will continue to tell you that every day, for the rest of your life. so let me love you a little every day before you aren’t little anymore.

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Pumpkins And Pregnancy

One of my favorite October traditions is visiting the pumpkin patches around this Salty City. they all seem the same, but they are all so different! Corn mazes, tasty treats, hayrides, and of course the different pumpkins! I never met a pumpkin I didn’t like.

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I decided to take a day trip to the pumpkin patch and snap a few photos with my beautiful sisterboo and the boys. I feel like pumpkins and pregnancies fit hand in hand with one another. They always turn out so cute. We had 3 rowdy boys with us.

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I’m so glad we live in a world where there are pumpkins and pregnancies! xx-Ray

Hello October

October is here!… well….tomorrow. Bye September!

It is literally one of my favorite months. Halloween, pumpkin patches, corn mazes, scary fun, parties, perfect photo opportunities.. the list goes on and on! i couldn’t be more excited to share with you lovelies.

To kick off my favorite month, I wanted to share a few of my favorite shots I took of Jax during October months.

Fall is my favorite time to shoot. The colors are amazing and pumpkin patches are so fun! xx-Ray

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Happy October, witches! Xo

Being His Mother

I officially became a mother to a beautiful baby boy in July of 2013.

Some might say I was a mother before that, but I didn’t truly feel it until the first time I held Jaxson.

Of course, I knew I was a mother when I found out I was pregnant and I became very attached to my growing baby belly, but actually holding him and hearing him cry.. it was incredible.

Now, when i first found out i was pregnant, I didn’t know whether i wanted a boy or a girl. Girls usually like dolls,  pink, glitter, makeup and have way more clothing options as it seems, while boys like dirt, and trucks, super heroes and… who knows what else.

I, myself, was a little bit of both. growing up with my older brother, I always did what he did. We had a much larger male to female ratio in our family, and I was limited to two girls (which are both huge parts of my life today). I went camping often with my dad, and loved being outdoors. I would play Barbies and instead of using Ken dolls, I used my brother’s G.I. Joe. I always loved all things girly. Princesses, make up, clothes– not so much pink though.

So when I was pregnant, I wasn’t quite sure what I wanted the gender to be. ( Like I get to choose anyways?!) because I had my older brother, I started to set my mind on a boy so my future kids could have a big brother. The protector; the one that could look out for the others.

Today, I am so grateful for my little boy and he is SO much fun. We DO play in the dirt, drive trucks and cars, wrestle, play super heroes, and yet, I still get sweet kisses and cuddles because he is my baby.

This past Friday night, I took my little date to our local raceway here in Utah with some family and we watched the midnight drag races. He loved it! And I loved being able to take him and watch him get excited about all the loud, fast cars. He would say “ready, set, go!” with me and watch them race down the track. And even though I probably could have done the same with a little girl, I just felt like he was so engaged and I was able to share that moment with him.

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I look forward to all things I get to do with this little boy! I hope you all find fun things to do with your children, whether they be a boy or a girl! xx-Ray

A Place To Wash Your Worries Away

Ever since i was little, I have always loved to take baths. My Gram always says I get it from my Grandpa Berger. She always tells me that he was like a frog, and always chose a bath over a shower.

It is my place of silence. Time to think and relax. alone time.

Jaxson has followed me on the path of love for bath time. even though his baths are more along the lines of cups, basketball hoops, and animals, while mine are more full of bubbles, bath bombs and bath salts.

When Jaxson was just a babe, I used to lay him on my legs and sing songs to him in the bath. I feel sorry that he had to listen to that and didn’t have a choice to say otherwise. But it was our time to bond.

Now that he is two, we still take baths.. but he is much more curious of everything, if you know what i mean..so i have to keep him busy! I teach him new songs, like ” down in the jungle where nobody goes, there is a big, fat elephant washing his toes!” and it makes it more fun for both of us because he is learning and also getting clean! If you don’t know what song I am talking about, you can check it out here.

Baths make me think how something so simple can be loved by so many. Sitting in a tub of water. washing your worries away.

My Grandpa passed in February 2013, five months before my son was born. I remember telling my grandpa and gram that I was pregnant and how excited they were for me. when my Grandpa passed, I was devastated. I couldn’t wrap my head around the fact that my wonderful, loving, Grandpa would not be in this world to meet my beautiful baby boy. “Oh, how he would have loved Jaxson” my Gram always says to me.

But I think he did meet Jaxson. I believe that sweet man helped handpick my little human and sent him down to be with me. My little frog. My wonderful, loving babe that is so dear to my heart.

Taking a bath is my place to wash my worries away. and think of how beautiful life is.. Life comes with the good and the bad, but you have to remember there is always something to be thankful for. Thank you Grandpa.. xx-Ray

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